But now,

Dear Maryam,

My dream came true when you were bestowed upon me. Masa mama mula-mula found out mama was carrying Maryam, mama panic sebab time tu abang baru 6 bulan. Tapi mama syukur sebab mama nak sangat ada baby girl, rambut kerinting. sebab mama selalu tengok gambar baby girl yang rambut kerinting and diaorang nampak cute sangat. Mama syukur sangat bila Maryam sampai dalam hidup mama. Mama happy sangat masa mama tengah carry Maryam sebab carrying you was easy. Takde morning sickness, takde sakit-sakit badan tapi Bapak yang rasa semua tu. Mama cuma mengidam makan ikan masin. Mama makan ikan talang masin everyday. One day, Bapak even caught Mama dipping my finger in the salt jar! :) (buat malu je, seminggu Bapak teased mama about it).

When i delivered you, it was one of the greatest joy of being a mother. Thank you for giving me a chance to experience a normal delivery. It was not so bad after all. Everything about you was easy, ... easy pregnancy, easy delivery and such an easy baby... And you grew up exactly how i dreamed of. With your bright eyes, you cheeky smile and your curly hair... just the way i wished for.

but now,

But now i understand the reason Allah granted my wishes, ... it was on a loan basis. He loaned you to me so you can bring joy to my life. To all of us, Bapak, Abam, Tok, Wan and everybody....
But i am grateful. For two years, i had a chance to be a mother, to be your mother. Nothing is better than that. Watching you grow, with your cheerful personality that pleased everybody. The way you touched people around you with your smile or with the twinkle in your eyes.

Mama love you Maryam Saffiyah. And Mama will always miss you.