How on earth did i.........

Dear Maryam,

How are you sayang? Mama baik, cuma busy sikit dengan kerja. Bila seharian busy dengan daily tasks macam sekarang, the moment mama tengok gambar Maryam yang tersenyum dengan bunga putih yang terselit kat telinga Maryam, jari Maryam yang cantik berinai, badan Maryam yang nampak sehat dan rambut Maryam yang cantik tiada tandingan, mama terfikir;

"How on earth did I get through the day? and the night before? Because you were not there. You did not sleep with me. I didn't fell you snuggling up to me.

For i am truly, missing you. I love you.

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FaoAugust 21, 2010 at 2:04 AM
Dear MamaMaryam, people say time can heal pain kan, but I think sebenarnya Allah yang tingkatkan lagi your kesabaran dan ketabahan......rasa sedih dan rindu you tu sebenarnya tak berkurang langsung...subhanAllah...take care:)
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MamaMaryamAugust 28, 2010 at 12:02 AM
Dear Fao,

come to think of it, i think ur right. the agony is still as painful as ever.. forever i think..
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As I walk this journey of a bereaved parent, I notice that my whole world changed. My beliefs aren't the same. My priorities aren't the same and my future is changed forever. My whole life has been shattered, and I didn't know where to begin to pick up the pieces or if I even had the will to pick up the pieces.

Everyone around me, even though very attentive to me, continued functioning in their lives. I didn't know where I fit in any more. I was alone, trying to figure out what happened in that split second when they told me Maryam was gone