Dear Maryam,
Semalam dah start puasa. Masa sahur tadi, mama teringat tahun lepas Maryam bersahur sekali ngan mama. Maryam kan suka makan, celik2 mata je Maryam boleh makan.
Maryam akan jalan terhuyung-hayang, terus ke meja makan, bleh plak tarik kerusi terus makan masik. Maryam yang mula-mula pandai cakap "masik" Abam pon ikut Maryam je.
Maryam paling suka makan masik. Kalo banding ngan Abam, Maryam lagi pandai makan masik ngan tangan. Maryam bab makan memang skillful.
Tok still wonder kenapa Allah amik Maryam dulu. Tok cakap,
"maybe Allah taknak bagi Maryam tengok semak-semak kat dapur rumah kita kot..."
and i just smiled a bitter smile choking on my tears.
Salam Mamamaryam,came to your blog by chance.I pray that you will be strong to face this dugaan from Allah. Mamamaryam, as much as you miss your daughter I hope you still put in as much energy for your little boy. As kids they can sense it if we are upset or stress etc. Bukan saya sengaja nak menyibuk dan pandai2 beri nasihat, maaf jika puan tersinggung. Tapi yang dah pergi memang sentiasa di dalam hati dan doa kita setiap hari tetapi yang hidup pun masih dahagakan kasih sayang.
ReplyDeleteDear Anon,
ReplyDeleteMy Harith is the center of my attention. Just because i do not write about him does not mean i do not care. when she left, he was the one who pat my back when i cried, who consoled me with his kisses. I am better now, and being a mother to him is the only thing i want to do. Thank you for your concern, just know that my Harith is never abandoned.
Dear MamaMaryam,
ReplyDeleteI have been following your blog for a month now and all I can say is that Maryam is such a beautiful little girl and you must be so so proud of her. Your words make me cry, I feel so much for you and I as look at my kids, I often think of Maryam as well. Be strong yer and salam Ramadhan to you and family.